Got Game?

Sorry to say but it seriously takes years of trust and some kick ass memories to be someone who I can really start allowing talks like this:

"what are you talking about, you're MY cuddle buddy. " -LN

"Haha cheatin on me??" -JT

"does -?- need to regulate? no one flirts with my cyndy" -CN

" i miss ya i miss ya i really wanna hug ya, 678 triple 9 82 12. Always." -JH

i have no idea what that last one meant but apparently it was a song from soulja boy and yeah... lol the point is that if you're not one of my friends for life figures. it really is awkward for me to sit there and read your attempts to be cute and trying to call me hun, babe, love, sweety, etc.

yeah i'm not too sure what it is but i'm getting a little tired of the lines and special treatment when i really am not looking for it.

i'm starting to get a little offended. i don't know people have realized that i've been living on my own up here in NorCal for the past 4 years and I've been able to get around and move from place to place as far as housing goes... about 10 times now. Also, even through life, I've been moving house to house and place to place all around SoCal. That being said, i really have to hold my tongue when someone starts giving me advice about moving and reminds me of the long drive to SoCal. shit, no really? 6 hours... damn i've had NO idea.

yeah. some people surprise me thinking they can just remind me of things but then again, i'm not one to remind them of how ignorant they are and they should figure by me ignoring them or awkward silence that they said something that i don't wanna comment on. yeah?

people have complained about me criticizing too much and even just not liking a lot of things and i'm not about to change what i like or make myself act like i really like something just to make the situation less awkward.

on to other less dramatic things

still trying to move and all that but i have the longest list of things to do that one can imagine also i haven't been keeping up with paperwork nor have i been going to work... kinda sucks, i'm now at the border of not knowing if i will be able to pay off my summer tuition and everything... pfth..

anyway, busy busy.

it's hard to update someone or answer the question "what's up" when you've been with other every day. even married couples work and don't see each other for a good 8 hours of the day and can share stuff with each other. think about it. as much as i want to have that fairy tale and cheesy story of wanting to be with you every minute whatever... i'm realistic and i don't need to worry about wondering what it would be like to be with someone 24 hours when i've already lived with someone who demanded of my attention like that almost every day.

i just don't understand how i'm still single and i'm dealing with the same thing now. obviously if i wasn't happy with the past living situation, why are people assuming that they can be that SPECIAL someone who can be there for me 24/7? cuz that's what i'm feeling and i don't need no fairy tale prince.

i can't believe i've only been single for a little over 2 months and I'm already dealing with ish like this.