New Divide

great song by Linkin Park -- a lot of the rock/alternative songs have been getting to me lately and i think it's ever since i was hanging out with abe and he was telling me about some of the songs on his playlist since rock/alternative is his genre. =)

anyway

i've been kind of the shrew lately ever since MMVT was down here in SoCal. i wish i could go back up north like most of them and get spoiled shitless and given money left and right. finding a job for the summer down here blows and it's tough going out and eating to catch up with friends when i really have nothing to spend. bills and summer tuition can't even be met and it's a killer to just even thinking about getting out of the red zone.

i do feel guilty for blowing off so many plans already and since i was given some money today, i'm gonna try and get my battery charger finally and start working on a few projects which involves seeing friends and just hanging out with the different teams and visiting studios and such. to make my drives less lonely, i'll even consider taking along friends just because i want to share what i'm doing with them--i mean if they don't mind at least. =)

i just wanna chill and hang out... take a walk somewhere and just kick it. the invitations i've been getting... pretty extreme but i think i'll break through this guilt feeling and just go with the flow again... see where this takes me like that one week when i came back and ended up in hollywood, anaheim, and san diego. =) i do miss it.

gotta prioritize better and be more spontaneous. i'm dulling down... gotta be up by 730 every morning and being in class and all that makes it hard for me to stay up past midnight or 1. i've been getting txts saying "it's only midnight! wtf!?" and more and i have one more week left of summer school. after that week... idk how much i can take staying out all night like i did at the beginning of summer lol... gah i'm scared but i'm excited at the same time! the places and things that i've done lately and hearing about the places where people wanna take me is so foreign.

BALLS TO THE WALLS! if i'm gonna go out then it's gonna be a kick ass time!

sorry for being so MIA everyone--time to retouch bases though! =)