i think it's sad that i was eating dinner with my mom and her friend and we were watching something on the vietnamese station and my mom goes, "these young girls are amazing how they work so close with the community to give back" =\ it's one of those moments that makes me think:

- if only she paid more attention to the things i've been doing ever since elementary school... been in student body office since 5th grade and have taken on various leadership roles and titles even up to this day... blah

- if i do start telling her about the things i've been doing, she'll probably just lecture me about focusing in school and stop using up studying time on things that i didn't move away up north for

sucks...

alright... ready for some rants?

1. people asking me to do things indirectly or having expectations of me but they never ask directly nor do they show their appreciation once the task is done. not cool... what's funny is that they later question why i stop talking to them or asking them if they need anything

2. cooking and someone else being a brat and whine about wanting some but cares not to help prepare for it or anything in that sort. it makes me think of the give a man corn/teach him how to plant. or give a man fish/teach him how to fish sayings. i don't mind cooking for friends but i think i would have more fun if they tried to help out and we talk while we work rather than having people watch me just make it for them and then just complain about its quality... ingrateful swine.

3. long trips and inconsideracies. this has been the hottest topic within the group of friends who i've been following for the past week. so when any group of bodies decide to go anywhere for a trip: #1 be willing to pitch in for money #2 the only stops should be a utilitarian decision made by the driver/group meaning it should be something of benefit for all such as a bathroom break or in need of a snack. i don't want to get too much into this or else i'm going to get mad again. i think the vietnamese side of me comes out whenever i'm on a long trip with people... this may be why i don't get asked to come on with long trips cuz i can come off as anal but it should only make sense if i'm bitching at the ones who aren't willing to fork up for gas.

i still can't get over "hey cyndy let's go somewhere!" me, "oh ok where do you want to meet up?" him, "oh... well i thought you could pick me up" wtf!? ugh... bitch niggas lol

k i really gotta study.

facebook is my drug right now and talking to him online about random stuff lol