first and foremost, i understand that as a director, i have to keep things professional but I also stress the importance of being fair.
now... if one of my dancers is trying to ruin the reputation and life of another dance team partner, then surely it's one of my duties to make sure that there's peace within the team.
now when both parties come to practice not bringing in the drama but i hear that there's already hatred and beef between... hmm.. oh well... someone new on the team and grace because NICK said something. then well you know what, i can't have that at practice and i'm not going to tolerate that type of backstabbing gossip on the team. there will always be gossip and ongoing exchanges of opinions about one another on the team. TAKING A STAND AS A DIRECTOR or any leadership position opens up criticism from others because it's true that each person has their own type of leadership styles, therefore, viewpoints clash. And yes, I've excepted that there will be those who don't agree with how I handle things but it's not like I don't welcome SOLUTIONS or possibilities to making things better -- i highly prefer this over all complaints and no solutions.
to speak for myself as well -- i'm just proud that i can withstand the pressure and even when both nick and lennin are saying stuff and calling me out on twitter, i still didn't open my mouth and get into any crazy secret spilling, details (like nick still continuously telling me what grace did when all i did was tell him to stop--and of course he kept going), and i didn't see myself saying anywhere that i'd quit the team or say stuff like
What's really good ? See shit go down? Really listen to yourself , fuck tomorrows performance and fuck being under you
lol yeah... i don't break this easily. what's funny is i always introduce him as the co-director and i NEVER saw him as "under me." I've asked for his suggestions before I've done stuff and he can't say that I haven't... it's funny how others put them under the victim's light at times. (i don't see myself as a victim at all -- i'm simply saying things based on my own opinion of what OTHERS are saying and i care for no sympathy).
bottom line is -- i've heard lennin say he'd quit, leave, come back, leave, come back, say shit's too hard right now so he'd leave then all of a sudden he's seen trying to audition for another team. saying he can't make it out to inc practices but he can make it out to tracy or even fresno. yeah.... and this isn't to pick on lennin. he's just used to set an example of how much i've heard of people leaving for several, several reasons. however, lennin has good intentions regardless of what others might say to me about him. and i'm sure he hears enough about me too --
although i don't agree when he says: "half the team left cuz u were causing drama" somewhere on his twitter. i'm too lazy to find it.
i think the only real problem i've ever had with anyone was doron. i think i can remember almost every reason why people would leave, and it's based on what they told me. so if they weren't being honest then... how can i be at fault and be held responsible for them leaving? lol
k 'nough bout me
as much as i wanted to go on about how i feel bout this nick and grace thing. i really don't have the energy and i'd rather save it to throw things back into nick's face if he ever decides to spend his times calling the inc members telling them stuff and having one of them call me at 2:45 AM o_0 it's a bit annoying, really. i have to go in and clean up the mess that he's made cuz now a friendship is broken and yeah if i'm going to have to make this into a court thing just to get nick to stfu about it. i will.
ooh another thing. i'm just gonna say it: i hate how in the middle of me trying to prove a point to nick, lennin jumps in and all of a sudden turn ME into a subject and then HIMSELF into someone who should be getting more praise from me cuz he does a lot. woop dee fuckin do, i do thank you for taking care of practice and thank nick for making mixes and have said before how lennin is the person who should be taking care of the studio and has more info so people should go to him. geez... i'm not just dumping responsibilities, i'm testing to see if he can handle the workload but after his "fuck this and fuck that" about being on team -- it's enough to prove otherwise.
so i'm in the middle of a conversation and then i get judged by lennin and then having to reassure him that he's important on the team? -_- yeah... it's such a bad timing for something like that. i don't see how i degraded him in any way as well.
seriously throughout my tweets, i have not said anything about siding with grace and when i was talking about unprofessionalism with nick, i was saying how he was handling his situation with grace, telling everyone on the team about the situation... i know the team is family but keep your personal drama to yourself cuz if your OWN damn family doesn't want to hear about it... what makes u think your dance family wants to hear about it. every relationship problem is the same! nobody can work it out but the couple.
if you're going to overreact and try to ruin her life by blurting out her stories and secrets then WHO THE FUCK WOULD WANT TO BE WITH YOU!?
and in her case, of course it's hard and if she did cheat then don't u think she knows that she has to admit to it and yeah it'll be harder for her to move on. no shit it's her fault if she cheated and she doesn't need YOUR ASS around to remind her every time. move the fuck on and i know it's hard but stop listening to "YOUR SONG" while you're at it lol
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