Study break

as much as i don't want to discriminate and look down on others, i find it hard to really take anyone seriously when they don't even care to portray themselves as someone TO BE TAKEN SERIOUS online.

i understand that people should be and act on however they want to feel and express themselves but why can't they just do that off the internet?

it's hard for me to really hear someone complain about their money issues or issues at home when they're always complaining publicly about every little thing around them especially when it's about things that nobody else can really change or do anything about.

the weather is cold
this [free] food can taste so much better
why is that girl wearing that?
ugh my dad's yelling at me

yeah, i'm being totally serious. i don't want to be the bad person by replying with anything negative because most of the time i'll just turn my head and not say anything cuz deep down i have that "if you don't have anything nice to say, then just don't say anything" so it ends up being an awkward ass silence. quite honestly, i think that if someone can go ahead and put themselves out there all the time and say ANYTHING to get attention, i feel as though i have every right as they do to express MY OWN concern about them being outright idiotic that they're talking about things that obviously NOBODY can really say anything about. the last thing i want is for them to feel that this is alright for them to just keep talking especially unwelcomely.

if i learned anything from communications, it's also that these are the type of people that others don't mind having around because they break moments of tension with their ability to talk when it's not appropriate cuz they're so clueless about how they SHOULD be acting lol. this is a true statement that's skewed and if i had my notes, i would quote it that the authors were saying this.

so bottom line is that these are the types of people that others can laugh at because they just have no idea that their rudeness isn't the proper etiquette in successfully delivering any type of message that they're trying to send. so it's amusing. as frustrated as i am that i have so many people who i'm following who fall under this category on twitter... i'd prefer to just not worry about them any further and just laugh about the types of things they're complaining and keep them in mind for when they actually are in the state of help.

what bothers me at the moment is how when my friend got beat up not too far back and i would drop whatever i'm doing to go be with them... and now they're complaining about stuff like, wanting a new phone... and other superficial things... >=\ it makes me upset that i have some superficial friends like that.

coming from someone who came from orange county, i know that could be a surprising statement but believe it or not, i think people in my city (when coming to possessions) are at least classier about it and know better than to talk about what they can/cannot/what others can or has gotten for them -_- and i miss that lifestyle.

only lately have i been able to really enjoy talking to the people around me cuz we've been talking about careers and fun places to go to and just what's funny on the web and whatever. when hanging out those who (whatever their financial burdens may be) and all they talk about are prized possessions or just material things... i really just want to walk away.

i've caught myself saying this more than once within the past month and i think it's going to be up there with my list of philosophies:

1. if you're not happy with what's in front of you, you can always leave and yes i HAVE said this to some people who have simply complained about where they are and how bored they are. one simple solution, change what you're doing. leave if you're not happy. if you can't then deal with it and stop complaining. i know that you're simple minded enough to even understand that complaining won't make the moment go by any quicker.

2. fake it until you make it. as much as i don't want to promote people being fake. i've heard this from university officials, my employers doing my macy's interview and orientation, and current supervisors on campus... it's pretty ridiculous but i think it's a great way to follow my first philosophy/statement. i take it that it means even in the worst situation, just pretend that you're into it just to pass the time by quicker as if you want to be there and then relax when it's over. the journey may be tough but if i pretend like i really want it that badly or worse than how much i want it, then i will get through it quicker.

and lastly, a saying that has been with me ever since i got with my boyfriend,

3. not my problem / out of sight - out of m ind. if someone comes up to me and complains about something... and i really don't care or not want to deal with it--very easily, i can say: it's obviously not my problem since i'm not the one complaining, so YOU can deal with it. lol also, a lot of which COULD be bothering me but isn't is due to me not caring to think about it or have it in front of my face.

i've dealt with so many new boyfriend's ex girlfriends, and ex boyfriend's new girlfriends, and all of these other BS that i know better to not deal with it until they approach me. so many people can feed me information but until i'm approached, what can i really do about what others are "doing to me?" nothing. "he said, she said" means nothing unless they approach the person they complain about... also... the response is also very important.

if i have a problem with someone and i approach them about it but they don't retaliate but they talk to others about me... i find that very rude but funny. it shows character and i understand that it only makes me the more confrontational one but at least i know that as soon as i say it, i can get over it and not have to bother my friends about it :)

it's just that lately, i can only imagine what my drunk dancers can only be talking about when they're "venting" but i don't care too much to ask, as long as they know better and just talk to others about it rather than rely on alcohol to get them to start talking. it's depressing how they need drugs to open themselves up to others, isn't it?

ps. as much as i know how much fun it is to drink all the time, i think it's safe to say that i don't trust a bunch of brain damaged folks with event planning and running projects with me :) if you're passing your classes and can still party and maintain a healthy relationship with your family, THEN talk to me about working together. if you're a party animal, only want to drink and meet "cool dancers/teams" and choreographers, and just want that spotlight... please don't mind me just brushing you off to the side as i focus on better and more important things :)