my standards

my standards are very high of certain people but not all or else i can't hang out with anybody :)
but when it comes to working together and putting together a business... there are higher level of standards and i hold this to be true more in relationships where both parties, including myself, have titles.

i can argue that titles don't mean anything but to cut to the chase, moral standards > [professionalism for me = legal bindings > friendship]

sometimes it depends on what came first between professionalism and friendship but for me... i find it to be safest with being friendly and being safe at first and i've been interpretted as being judgmental more than half the time. i see myself as being more critical so i started looking up the definitions to see if there was really a difference:

judgmental Of or relating to judgment; Inclined to pass judgment, critical
critical marked by a tendency to find and call attention to errors and flaws; "a critical attitude"; characterized by careful evaluation and judgment

so the way i see it... is that i have the worse of the two. i see myself as more critical in that i like to call attention to errors and flaws whereas others misunderstand this to be "judgmental" where my definition of judgmental means that i'm also pointing out things that are possibly good or just any random thing like noticing what someone is wearing.

no... i'll admit to the worse in that i'm critical and i can't say that i'm not too ashamed of it. i know i'm not perfect but i know that i can try.

why put on a shabby first event knowing that i can just learn from the mistakes when i can try to put on a fantastic and grand event with all of my resources put to use and learn from both mistakes and what has worked all together so that the second event would be even better than the first :)

and that's how i see it. as far as personalities go, i've bit on my tongue a lot and have just walked past people who i dislike or don't understand without a care to see what they're up to. i think this is a huge step in change for me and if being quiet makes me cold and bitter, i feel that it's the best way rather than for me to always voicing myself to be so critical of others.

however, i must warn others that if there is a chance where i am asked to help, i WILL not hold back and show my full potential on how i would do the required task, assuming you failed yours :) me being quiet is just to be considerate and not step on anyone's shoes.

i recently just told my boss this and he totally understands and wants the others to learn about event hosting first hand, so i've been sitting aside and not interfering. not the easiest thing to do, but i think i'm doing many a favor :)