Karma

laws of physics - for every action, there's an opposite and equal reaction.

by laws of gravitational energy, potential energy, and finally kinetic energy... if a car were to be in neutral and is pushed off a steep hill, picking up speed and then hits a wall... all the energy from the car isn't enough to move the wall (mountain) thus... all the built up energy is released as heat (explosion of the car)

social applications.

if there is something said to me or about me (esp. about my friends) i will react. i don't know why people think they can say stuff on social networks and not expect a response. if they say something "mean" then they will get something "mean" back. especially when people say "what the fuck is that" and i reply, "this (item) is what the fuck" in the most calmest voice and i laugh cuz it startles the person like i'm getting defensive when i'm really just mocking them. it should be expected =)

one thing that slips my mind when it comes to karma is that even negative thoughts will lead to negative outcomes... makes sense, especially if you assume negative outcomes which will lead you to be paranoid and what not... lol definitely doesn't make the moment any better to think of it in a negative light.

the opposite of love isn't hate... you still care to hate and of course you love cuz you care... so to just save yourself some trouble and not explode, just stop caring. i think this is just a way to tell myself to stop caring either but here's what's on my mind:

i was trying to check my twitter account earlier and i forgot that i wasn't logged into my account... then i saw someone's update on twitter about "might as well not be friends" as his status and i rolled my eyes lol... same issue every time with that person and it's just funny cuz he's doing the same thing... over and over and over...

another thing about karma:

if you're not gonna learn your lesson the first time... the lesson will repeat itself over and over again until you get it.

and that's what i'm seeing with this person. i'm not pointing it out for a conversation. i'm just laughing at the thought that he hasn't changed and it's quite obvious because he said the same thing to me, and my two other friends lol. so dumb...

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a compliment to me is a compliment when i'm around others who share the same talent...

if someone said i'm a good dancer when i'm in a room with a bunch of people who don't dance... i see how it can be a compliment but it really doesn't mean anything to me.

being complimented by another director of another team that i look up to... now THAT's breathtaking
being told that i'm a hard worker from a student when i'm in a classroom is nothing compared to a professor telling me that he thinks i'm very intellectual and that my work impresses him.

it's just my style and in return, i like to make a scene for those who i think deserves the attention--and this is really quite obvious if you know me well enough.

i LIKE to be the person to help build someone's resume because i know that compliments can only help the self-esteem for so long whereas professional recognition of talent can really go a long way. i love writing letters of recommendation and i think it's a huge compliment when people ask me to be their mentors =) one of the best feelings in the world: to feel useful, needed, and recognized--and i want to do the same for others.

i feel sorry for those who do say nice things about me though and it goes for both extremes. i don't like compliments because they really don't do anything for me and i don't like negative comments cuz they also do nothing for me. nonverbals > verbals for me and it really does make my day just even getting a smile from the old security guard at the bank opening the door for me, smiling, and wishing my a happy holidays or a good afternoon. i smile back and that's really all it takes. i love getting cards in the mail from my supervisors and i miss my old staff so much because they would slide stuff on my doors or pull pranks on me that makes me wonder who it was cuz even a prank is something that's nonverbal and they're fun little pranks that shows me that they were thinking of me =)

likewise... i like doing the same for others. more nonverbals > verbals.

katie luu brings out the best in me. she told me that i'm such a sentimental person when she was the one who ding-dong-ditched on my door on valentine's day senior year of high school and i found a card on the floor tied to a red balloon :) i love it.

surprises are fun.
sentimental gifts are the best.

k i'm getting off so many tangents. i'm just gonna end it here.

goodnight and dress warm everyone.